1. |
Stained Glass Beats
04:23
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Winsome weakness
Getting high on the incense and innocence
Sacred secret
Heavy doors, wooden floors, holy wine
And all my friends and faces I don't recognize
formalize every body moving perfectly in sync
And the stained glass beats
the stained glass beats
I'm a little sharp on the edges, but forgive it
we'll make something sweet
And the stained glass beats
The people speak
Sweet Cecilia, show me the sun
Stoned sinless
Blending in with the buzz of the born again
Vogue vision
Roaring bands, blurry hands, blinding light
And all those friendly voices singing paradise
verify every body thinking perfectly in sync
And the stained glass beats
the stained glass beats
I'm a little sharp on the edges, but forgive it
we'll make something sweet
And the stained glass beats
The people speak
Sweet Cecilia, show me the sun
Now I just hear you,
listening in from Jefferson
I can still feel the rainbow sunlight on my skin
And all of our eyes take for granted
the glass shattered pieces made new
That's just my heart
you're looking right through
And the stained glass beats
the stained glass beats
I'm a little sharp on the edges, forgive it
we'll make something, something sweet
And the stained glass beats
the stained glass beats
I'm a little sharp on the edges, but forgive it
we'll make something sweet
And the stained glass beats
The people speak
Sweet Cecilia, show me the sun
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2. |
Control
05:09
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I’m out of the gate
I’m out of my mind
I’m out of the thing I need to keep you satisfied
Don’t ask me again
To put you at ease
I’m the one who can’t avoid the flame, til it threatens to retreat
I’m not the one
If I even had a say at all
Trust me, babe, I said
I’m not the one
But I don’t have a say at all
I’m out of my control
I’m out of my control
I saw the fire, and the fire wouldn’t haunt me
But I can’t fight the waves
I’m out of my own…
Control
I locked every door
I melted the key
Applauding the heat for putting on a show with me
Don’t ask me again
How I’m out in the rain
When nothing is adding up, I know you know, that there’s always one to blame
I’m not the one
If I even had a say at all
Trust me, babe, I said
I’m not the one
But I don’t have a say at all
I’m out of my control
I’m out of my control
I saw the fire, and the fire wouldn’t haunt me
But I can’t fight the waves
I’m out of my own…
Control
Go ahead,
Be the one to call the shots now
Go ahead,
Be the one to take a stand
For the plan that you knew all the way
Play the faithful hand, oh
Go ahead,
Tell me I’m not gonna last, now
Go ahead,
Ask me “Are you ready, yet?”
I was set with a net of your ropes, but it broke
So I’m left with more than you ever dared to hope
I’m out of control
I'm out of my control
Go ahead,
Be the one to call the shots now
Go ahead,
Be the one to take a stand
For the plan that you knew all the way
Play the faithful hand, oh
Go ahead,
Tell me I’m not gonna last, now
Go ahead,
Ask me “Are you ready, yet?”
I was set with a net of your ropes, but it broke
So I’m left with more than you ever dared to hope
I’m out of control
I’m out of my control
I saw the fire, and the fire wouldn’t haunt me
But I can’t fight the waves
I’m out of my own…
Control
I saw the fire, and the fire wouldn’t haunt me
But I can’t fight the waves
I’m out of my own…
Control
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3. |
How Could You?
04:45
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I thought for sure
If we met up for drinks
I'd feel everything
I'd consume the sight of you
The past in a glass
But I know for sure
that I don't recognize your face
anymore
Were you always keeping face?
My stupid faith in your transcendent grace
Like sovereignty could ever be humane
How could you?
How could you make me believe
that in order for me to be free
I need more of you and less of me?
Where's your humanity?
You called me up
Just to remind me that you'd die
So I could live
And to nail me to a tree
of ignorance
You fucked me up
Put on that mask again so I
might understand
How you ever made me think
I owe you everything
How could you?
How could you make me believe
that in order for me to be free
I need more of you and less of me?
Is it really love if I can't feel it when I'm in it?
Where's your humanity?
How could you?
How could you make me believe
that in order for me to be free
I need more of you and less of me?
Where's your humanity?
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4. |
What Did I Do?
03:23
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What did I do to you
When I told you I'm a human, too?
What did I do to you
When I broke this bread to share with you?
Why would you disown me?
What did I do?
Jesus
Did I hurt your Christ?
Did my freedom weave his crown?
Did my love nail him down?
Was it too much for him to rise?
What did I do to you?
Did my claim to worth threaten you?
What did I do to you?
Did my crimson stain your red, white, and blue?
Were you scared by my empty tomb?
Are you dying here?
What did I do?
Deny me
Deny me
Deny me
I'm dying here
What do I do to you?
I rise
I rise
I rise
I rise
I rise
I rise
I rise.
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5. |
On Whose Shoulders
02:12
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Pulled my own tooth
earned just enough
to buy the hot food
sick of packing my own lunch
Brand new jeans
and a ride to school
Better believe that the ride was full
There's something 'bout everything
that seems so small
when it's handed right to you
"Use it well"
Well for whom?
I never knew
but do I know you?
On whose shoulders is the world I use?
Kyrie, Eleison
Laoi, Eleisate
Do I know you?
Do I know you?
On whose shoulders is the world I use?
On whose shoulders is the world I use?
On whose shoulders is the world I use?
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6. |
Sometimes
04:22
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They sing it like they're really happy
They sing it like they're really free
They sing it like they are a sparrow
They sing like they believe
Sometimes it's hard to hear you
Sometimes it's hard to remember to want to
Sometimes it's hard to fall apart in your arms
When I'd rather not at all
Sometimes I think I'll never know
Sometimes I think that I knew it too long ago
Sometimes I think that if I blink, I will sink
but that can't be bad, I think
Will you take my sometimes?
Take them every time
and make them into something you can take?
Sometimes I change my mind a lot
Sometimes I change the foundations of every thought
Sometimes I change to take the pain and arrange it
into something I can take
Wish I could sing it 'cause I'm happy
Wish I could sing it 'cause I'm free
Wish I could sing it like a sparrow
and sing like I believe
Will you take my sometimes?
Take them every time
and make them into something you can take?
Will you take my sometimes?
Take them every time
and make them into something I can take?
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7. |
My Body's Alive
04:56
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Barely breathing the world is
hardly hanging on
More than ever
your world seems so strong
Tie the strings 'round my heart
then turn out the light
We will sleep
we will wake before it's right
Like neither can live
while the other survives
Just can't get a grip on it
'cause your heart is mine
My hands touched those keys
my tongue, that wine
My lips touched the feast
My eyes saw the light
My feet keep trying to move me alive
'cause if my body can survive,
so will I
The world that rejects you
the world that accepts you
the living, the dying
collide in our bodies
My body's alive in your world and mine
My body's alive in your world and mine
My body's alive.
My hands touched those keys
my tongue, that wine
My lips touched the feast
My eyes saw the light
My feet keep trying to move me alive
'cause if my body can survive,
if my body can survive,
if my body can survive,
so will I
My body's alive.
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8. |
Grandma
03:01
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Wash your hands, girls
Clear as your pearls in my mind
Sunday chimes
Whiter than you,
Grandma Sue
I wish that you could see me now.
I've found
the quiet, magic holy
in the skin you know so well.
Dressed in flowers
Counting the hours in my mind
Sunday chimes
Whiter than me,
donning dreams
I wish that we could see me now.
I've found
the quiet, magic holy
in the skin you know so well.
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9. |
Knotted Up
04:42
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Bowing on the inside
to a shrine that gets better with time
You want me to take the high road,
but I miss how it feels to be devoted
I sit here at the fork,
strung high, laying low
'Cause I've been one way before
And I'd rather be knot, knot, knotted up
I'm indeterminable
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm questionable
I'm a problem, I'm a problem
so happily.
You won't come over
'cause I keep leaving open the door
You want me to shut your ex out
But there's always more bread to go around
I sit here at the fork,
strung high, laying low
'Cause I've been one way before
And I'd rather be knot, knot, knotted up
I'm indeterminable
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm questionable
I'm a problem, I'm a problem
so happily.
Find the end of a string,
and follow it into the middle of everything
holding hands with the enemy,
dine with your regrets and with your dreams
Find the end of a string,
and follow it into the middle of everything
I'm a fascinating fastening
You can't unravel me
unravel me
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm indeterminable
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm questionable
I'm a problem, I'm a problem
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm indeterminable
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm questionable
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm indeterminable
I'm knot, knot, knotted up
I'm questionable
I'm a problem, I'm a problem
I'm a problem, I'm a problem
I'm a problem, I'm a problem
so happily.
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10. |
Give It All
03:36
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Is it better,
Holding breath that your
Lungs just want to breathe?
In a moment
Just a moment
It takes to spill
And it will fill every space in between
I’ll give it all to you
Every piece of my peace of mind
Every tear that I have cried
Give it all to me
Maybe we can teach each other how to breathe
And how to be
Are you tired of
Picking sides
When you’re fighting
With yourself?
Let a word out
Let 'em hear now
Let it spill
And it will fill every space in between
I’ll give it all to you
Every piece of my peace of mind
Every tear that I have cried
Give it all to me
Maybe we can teach each other how to breathe
And how to be
So give it all, give it all, give it all, give it all
So give it all, give it all to me
So give it all, give it all, give it all, give it all
Give it all
I’ll give it all to you
Every piece of my peace of mind
Every tear that I have cried
Give it all to me
Maybe we can teach each other how to breathe
And how to be
Maybe we can teach each other how to breathe
And how to be
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11. |
You Are
03:07
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Faint spirit,
dressed in all of the pieces that once made your heart
Prisoner, stuck between safety and doors that are open
Faint spirit,
bound by all of the hurt so you don't fall apart
Tears slipping out of the place you forgot was still broken
I'm telling you
I'm telling you
You are sown to be grown
You are clothed in a robe
made of dreams sweeter than home
made of more than you ever hoped
You are, you are, you are
Get off your knees and dance 'til your feet
turn this dust into soil, that ash into oil
I'm telling you
You are sown to be grown
You are clothed in a robe
made of dreams sweeter than home
made of more than you ever hoped
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Spencer LaJoye Denver, Colorado
Spencer LaJoye is an East Coast singer/songwriter from the Midwest making queer indie folk music for everyone. The 2021 Kerrville Songwriting Competition winner spins crystalline vocals through a loop pedal while strumming an acoustic guitar in charming, banter-heavy performances that keep audiences laughing one moment and weeping the next. ... more
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